Clarity

Answering some questions from previous entries:

1. Why am I not writing? - Because I'm afraid I won't be any good at it anymore. Because I'm afraid I'll be good at it and then discover I'm bad. Because then people will know what I really think and who I really am. Because it gets in the way of television couch surfing.



2. Why haven't I taken tests for a promotion? - Because instinctively, I know that to promote means to commit to a higher level of dedication and responsibility at work and I don't want to go there. I have other dreams I want to pursue. If I promote, everything else must come second.
   



3. Why don't I call my mother more often? - Duh....because she's your mother! She's never satisfied and you always end up wanting to eat your weight in pie after you hang up.
   



4. Why have I stopped going to the dentist? Obviously because it hurts. Less obviously because it's overwhelmingly expensive.
   



5. And why is my office reminiscent of the wreck of the Hespers? Because you are afraid of the Dimensions of Paradise. What would happen if you could actually work in there? Then you would want to actually work in there and challenge on your addiction to being a sheep-like cube junkie who depends on her employer for her wherewithall. You'd have to take care of your own financial well-being.